our first 2 weeks as 4.
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Jack will be 12 days old today! in some ways it feels as though he has been with us for longer, and in other ways, it feels like yesterday that he was born. but then again, i feel that way about Jessie as well.
well things have been interesting. the first 2 days that we were home, i really struggled. my milk was coming in, and my hormones were out of whack. i felt like i had to be super mom and just cope. but i had no idea how on earth i was going to cope with 2 such tiny ones. so i had a few wobblies. Jessie was also “off” me and seemed to prefer everybody else. but that came right by the first weekend home.
Bryan had an exam on monday, we had our kitchen re-done on tuesday and wednesday and then B had another exam on thursday (yesterday). so i spent a lot of time at my moms house. yesterday was my first time alone with both kids. it went pretty well. Jack is going through quite a mommy phase and is happiest and most relaxed when he is with me. He is feeding heaps!! sometimes he feeds every 45minutes for 3 hours or so and then he’ll sleep for 2.5-3 hours. so i cant really complain. at night he is also doing a 3-4 hour stretch, which is stunning for me! however, i still feel pretty tired at the moment.
Having Jessie still feeding has been great for engorgement! 
she was able to drain the whole boob, which gave me HUGE relief. but on the flip side, its been difficult when ive had to feed both at the same time. i have myself getting irritated with her as her latch is more sore than Jack’s. and i feel like i should be giving my all to jack. but then i remind myself that she is only a baby too, and she only feeds twice a day for 15 minutes. its still great bonding for her and i. especially since i dont get to spend the same amount of quality time with her anymore.
when Jack is sleeping i try and devote that time to jessie. it can be tricky, but we’re working on it. 
the main thing that ive had to do, is try and relax about it all and not over-analyze things. in the beginning i took jessie’s behaviour as rejection of me, and was pretty heart-broken about it. but now its all ok. it was just an adjustment for her. she has gone from having ALL my attention to having only some of it. its been hard for me as well, i really miss my time with her, but we are finding our groove and its getting better.
On monday we had Jack weighed. he lost 210grams before coming home. he came out of hospital at 3.855kgs. in 6 days he put on 595grams! he weighed 4.445kgs and his head had grown 2cm! at this rate he is going to weigh over 5kgs by the time i have him weighed on the 19th! but hey, he is going to be a big boy! his hands and feet are huge!! his feet can fit into a pair of 1-6month socks. even the peaditrician took 1 look at the size of his hands and feet, and told us that we were going to have a big guy on our hands.
having B work from home is great, as he is available to help out loads. in fact, he has been very housekeeperish lately. its been a HUGE blessing. he has helped me so much. im slowly trying to get things back to normal, but its hard some days, so we just take it day-by-day. the only hard thing is trying to keep jessie out of his office and helping her understand that daddy is working. i feel so sorry for her as when im feeding or winding jack, and she wants a playmate, im not available and nor is B. but she is getting better at it. she plays very well on her own, and can entertain herself for ages, but there comes a point when she wants to play with us, and thats not always possible. but we’ll figure it out.
we did have jack circumcised and thats nearly 100% healed. his cord has still not fallen off, but it looks as though a part of it will fall off today. its amazing how quickly we forget about things. i remember jessie cluster feeding, but dont remember her feeding as often as jack is. my mom reminded me. she also reminded that jessie wasnt always a perfect baby and also had bad days, when i chatted about jacks struggling with wind, and having bad days. luckily there are people to remind us!
on the whole, things are going well. im feeling pretty good, and have an almost flat tummy. my hips still need to go back to normal, but i reckon that will only happen in the next few weeks. my stretch marks dont look as bad as i thought they were. People in the shops always say that they cant believe ive just had a baby, they say i look too good. 
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my 2 babies are sleeping now, and they look so peaceful and beautiful. i am so blessed to have such a stunning family. thank-you Lord!!!