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Tuesday, July 7th, 2009

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mammo…me?

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youre thinking 25 is too young to be thinking, let alone having, a mammogram?! WRONG!! i had to have 1 today. it was such an emtional, weird experience.

i found a lump, about 2 weeks ago, and didnt tell anyone for a little bit. then i got nervous, and told  b and my mom. they both said that i should get it checked out. (i knew that i should but was pretty darn nervous) so off i went to my gynae’s nurse. she felt it and said that she thought it was elongated but would chat to the doc. she called me and said i must go for an ultra-sound.

i made an appointment and went off for my ultra-sound yesterday morning. this is where my day went pear-shaped. the sonographer felt for the lump and then checked it out. and much to my dismay and hers, there it was. a LUMP! she told me that it was probably just a fibroidadenoma, but she was worried due to its shape, and proceeded to book me for a mammogram.

i felt like i was having an out-of-body experience. i kept thinking; im 25, i have 2 kids. this cant be happening, what if i have breast cancer?? it just didnt seem right that we were discussing radiation, chemo, removal of a cancerous tunour all in relation to me! it was just too strange, weird and wrong!

i was  not scared at all, terrified! the hour spent waiting to have the mammo was torturous. everyone telling me that ill be fine, me trying to hold onto that and just wanting answers! of course, my head was also trying to process trying to accept that it could be cancer. huh??

the mammo itself was not bad at all. the radiologist sellotapes a metal-ball to each nipple. (i hate nipple piercings, and that what it looked like! yuk) then they place your breast (read: place and check, reposition and check, double check, shift and check) onto the machine before squashing down on your breast, making your breast the meat in a mammo sarmie!  it didnt hurt a bit, was not too uncomfortable and was not at all a nasty procedure!

i was told, once all was said and done, that my gynae would call with the results. 4 very long hours later, she called. it seems to just be a fibroidadenoma, thank the Lord! i do have to be re-checked in 3months time to make sure its not growing, as that wouldnt be good, but other than that, its a-ok!

the whole experience was very strange, but 1 that im glad to have experienced. hopefully ill be more bderstanding of those facing a mammo for whatever reason! ill hopefully be able to alleviate some fear and dread, while encouraging them to remaon focused on God. He carried me yesterday, using B! he was so strong and positive!

life is hard sometimes, and being faced with your mortality is difficult. im trying to learn from it, but feel as though im failing dismally!