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Monday, January 24th, 2011

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Green-eyed monster

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That little green-eyed jealousy monster is such a pain! I find it very hard, sometimes, to squash it back into its hole.

I have am blessed, richly! We all are. But sometimes, I look at what others “have” and that little monster raises its ugly head, pricks up its ears and crawls out of its hole. Once its out, it starts to make a noise. It starts off as a low growl and works itself up to a roar, if I don’t manage to grab it and wrestle it back into its hole.

Once its roaring, its very hard to quiet it down. At this point, I usually get a bit emo and start to mope or get angry. I find myslef thinking about “what if”, “if only”, “why not me?”. And that’s when the monster starts raising its fist in triumph.

I don’t have to look too hard to see my blessings. I have an awesome husband, beautiful sprogs AND a God who loves me and cares for me. With these thoughts that monster starts to quiet down. It stays out of its hole but all noise ceases. Sometimes I’m silly enough to think that the attack is over, but its not! The monster is merely waiting for a chance to make some more noise.

The second attack is always a sudden, loud roar. It comes without warning and leaves me feeling blind-sided. The emotions come to the surface and I wonder how it got me again. The second attack is harder to recover from. The most obvious blessings are spoken again, but somehow they seem a bit less powerful. I remember my family, how we are all close, my cupboards have food in them, we have a roof over our heads and the means to buy what we need.

The monster goes still again. I don’t want another attack! I do not want to be its prey! So I hit it…

I am a daughter of God. He sent HIS Son to die for me on the cross. I am washed clean because of HIS love for me! Not because of anything I’ve ever done, because HE loves me and because of who HE is! HE blesses me beyond measure. HE gives me what I need out HIS love for me…

The green-eyed monster is suddenly nowhere to be seen. I can hear it in its hole, but for the time being, its gone! Unfortunately, it will be back because I’m weak. But fortunately I have an almighty God who will help me to vanquish it, time and time again, until my lesson is learnt.