An issue I’m having
Family, we (hopefully) all have them. It’s never all sunshine and roses, but it is good… In fact mine is pretty darn awesome! As is my extended family (mom, brothers, dad, brothers other halves). My immediate family (the sprogs and B) are amazingly perfect… Most of the time 
I wish I could say it was like this across the board. But sadly it isn’t. Things with B’s family are somewhat strained… Ok, who am I kidding? We dont have contact with them. Its been a long, messy road that has had a lot of fighting and tears along the way. There have been periods of “peace” but these have only lasted a few months, before flaring up again.
B has been amazing. He has stood me by through it all. He has fought FOR me, us and OUR family. He has been so strong through it all. I am 1 very blessed wife!
I struggle though. I’m struggling with holding a grudge. I’m finding that forgiveness and letting go is an everyday battle. I know it shouldn’t be, but it is. Sometimes I think that I’m ok with it all, then out of the blue I will think of something, and I find myself battling anger and rage all over again. I have even considered getting professional help in order to deal with it all. I honestly think that I need to put more prayer and scripture searching into it. I need to put it to rest. If B has moved on, I should be able to do the same… Right
